Pure Faith

Good evening friends!
I know I haven't written down anything in ages...partly because I am busy and not keeping still enough to listen to the Lord and I repent of that. I got so distracted and pulled into many directions lately but tonight after attending bible study- the Lord was able to break through to me at last. I really am thankful...I'm always in a better space when I can feel God with me and I feel totally lost and vulnerable when I leave His side. It just made me realize all the more how helpless we truly are without Christ.
This age is just getting darker and darker, everything in the world is...and it's becoming more pronounced and more revealing. Just browsing videos/movies- most themes or plots are vampires, witchcraft and demons, beasts and deformed creatures which within the story are portrayed as heroes. Demonic characters!

Some would say I am paranoid but the truth is- there are demon powers anointing these films- it is a manifestation of what's in the world today. I've never seen skulls and crossbones used so vividly in so-called 'art' or clothing and tattoos in any other generation except now, at present. You can only see them in bottles marked as poisons before- but isn't that ironic as well? skulls in baby clothes? the very intent of the devil is to separate us from our Maker through spiritual death- which is in fact worse than physical death.

Evil is slowly disrobing itself in society and has successfully impregnated itself in the minds of men, very subtly. There are no more boundaries to what is right or wrong, everybody is doing their own thing, so to speak and we are encouraged to have an 'open mind'. But that is not altogether right- we have to know what is right or wrong and we cannot tolerate these things in our lives.

Now I can clearly see why the Scripture said in Mark 13:20 that God will shorten the days in the end times otherwise no soul would get saved- is because these days have gotten so evil. Man cannot withstand such evil only God can. And only those who have the Holy Ghost- Jesus Himself, the blood on the lintel- would be saved. His seed. No wonder John cried so much in Revelations when he thought no one is worthy to open the book, because mankind would be lost. There would be no point to life, to living if there is no redemption from evil.

We have to remember this my friends....we have to always remember that without Jesus we are nothing. We are totally dependent on Him, every breath, every strength, from day to day, from hour to hour...we need Jesus Christ. And like Adam and Eve way back in the fall- we tend to run away. We hide from God, we hear His call but we hide from Him...that's the carnal nature- it will always reject Christ because the flesh is serpent seed, see..It's not from God and will never go back to God, hence the mortal body dies and we are left with a soul which is the true us. And this soul after death goes somewhere....and this destination is chosen here on earth, while we are still living and breathing. We can respond to God's call for repentance, humility, surrender and obedience or ignore Him and just live the way we want and do the things we do.
Nobody can tell you what to do is one thing but don't allow stubbornness and pride drag your soul to hell.
Friend, let us choose Jesus Christ and lay down our pride. Let us lay down everything- our own thoughts, opinions, principles and surrender them at His feet and let HIS mind come in you. So we could think the way He thinks, see the way He sees, act the way He acts and love our neighbours the way He loved us.
Let us desire Him. God bless.

 I have learned a lot of things from being a parent at this stage in my life. My children are now young adults and every single day I almost always learn and reflect on something about parenting. It is sometimes a surprise when I can relate it to myself and the Lord. I would not deny the fact that I am just like any parent and my children though try as I might to raise them without imperfection- that in reality is to no avail. Children develop their own personalities, convictions and characteristics. I have experienced a lot of heartaches and worries with my children in their teenage years and I would say this very minute that is one of the things that's burdening my heart...and the hurt that I feel from my children I realized- really hurts. It kind of digs deep and it's just a dull ache really sitting in my heart and the only reprieve I would get is when I have them in my arms again. When they finally realize the love of a parent towards a child, when they can finally  say- 'i see it now'...when they finally understand why you say the things you say and do the things you do. But like all things- 'understanding' takes time, realizations take time simply because they have to have the space to mature and grow. And at this time- I feel in my heart to just let them go, I felt that that is what the Lord wanted me to do. But my prayers for them will never cease...prayers especially for their salvation. I believe God honours a mother's prayer for their children.
It's funny because when I am in tears and just feeling so sad because I am or say we are so misunderstood sometimes,  I think about God because in many, many ways He is to us a parent. He made us, He envisioned us and He gave His life for us and yet we rebel against Him, we treat Him with disrespect and despite His longing to draw closer to us- we keep running away from the Lord. He has been really patient though with us His children, as the Bible says God 'strives with man'- though for a time and season only.
So really, everything I am going through now- I reflect on it and I ask Him- is this how I make you feel Lord? is this how we treat you despite your goodness? am I running away from you? and I admit sometimes I do. I don't intentionally do them but I catch myself every now and again slipping away into the world and farther from God's safe arms, see. It can be easily done...the enemy is so cunning he can just fill your day with so many things and at the moment that's how I found myself. Work, studies, hobbies etcetera...all seem well and good but they slowly drag me away from God. Which is why I need more of Him, I really need to kneel down and pray away....I need, we need to spend every spare time with God especially in this day and age where deception displays as 'good' when underneath is death, there is no life but separation from Christ.
 I truly, honestly believe as well that I am not the only one going through this- I believe there are many christians out there being attacked in this subtle way. Just a gentle lull but our God is greater than all these and His seed will never be deceived, amen. He will protect His seed til the end.